A family contacted me with great sadness and confusion. Their teenage relative had committed suicide and they were left with unanswered questions. Their relative, Robby, (whose name I have changed to protect the family's privacy) was a normal 17 year old boy. He appeared to have everything going for him. Great friends, an outgoing , fun personality, he was involved in extracurricular activities and school. But, one day, which appeared to be a day like any other, he took his own life.
Robby communicated with me, and although he may not have given specifics on his actions, he did give a very small insight into why he chose suicide. Now I realize this is a very touchy subject, one that fills people with many emotions and religious and spiritual thoughts. I am not writing this to editorialize Robby's actions. I am not and will not condone or condemn his actions or explanations. I am only sharing this for anyone who ever wondered what could make someone take their own life. And while every person and situation is different, it may or may not offer some information that could help someone dealing with this kind of loss.
I have removed any information that can be seen as damaging to the family involved.
I am feeling head pain, swirling confusion, nausea, overwhelmed. "Didn't see a way out. Nothing to do with my family, I loved my family. Life. Life was just overwhelming, school, everything was so hard, I couldn't catch up. I couldn't deal with it. the pain, it hurts so much, it was all too much. I didn't want to burden anyone else with my problems. They couldn't help me. I didn't see any other way out. I couldn't fight anymore. the pain, the confusion of it all, I can't begin to explain or express it. Not one factor, so many things I couldn't deal with anymore. I'm sorry, please tell them I'm sorry. Yes I hear them, I love them, I love that they say they aren't angry with me. It means so much to me. I am working through my anger with myself for doing what I did. But on earth I just didn't see any other way".
I am feeling mental illness, stress, confusion, depression, hiding it through smiles, trying to work through it but genetic, brain chemistry, wasn't allowing him to rationally work through his problems. He couldn't see things clearly. He saw no light in his darkness. Just pain.
Please know he is okay now. "I see things clearly". He knows what he did and that partly he couldn't have stopped it from happening. He is learning and growing on the Other Side. He is so much happier now. He can think clearly, the confusion and stress are gone. The pain is gone. He wants to thank his family for loving him and for caring about him. For being there for him. But no one could have stopped this from happening. He knows that now.
That was the end of Robby's communication with me. He didn't get into how it happened or any specifics and I feel he didn't want to. I didn't press him for any information. I let him tell me what he wanted to tell me, what he felt comfortable with. He really didn't want his family concentrating on the actual suicide. He wanted them to think about the good times, the love for one another, to be happy.
Setting aside all religious and spiritual beliefs that my readers may or may not have on this subject, this is what was communicated with me. I can only hope that the information given in this reading will be in some small way insightful and/or helpful.
God Bless. xo
In Love and Light,
Lisa Marie
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